ADCH, ATCH-SP, MACH3, NATCH6, APD, U-CD, SHR Rachel's Riviera Dream, CDX, JH, RE, WC, S-TN-E, S-TG-E, WV-E, AXP, AJP, ADHF (GRCA), NADAC Hall of Fame

Taken out field training on October 17th, 2009. 14 yrs and 2 months old.
(photo by Kathy Flaherty)

(August 5, 1995 * October 31, 2009)

Yesterday my "Dream" of 14 yrs ended..... what can you say about somebody who has taken you places that you would have never gone, helped you meet people you would have never met and basically made you a better person over the last 14 yrs.
 
This journey started with a 7 wk old bundle who was already confident and shared a joy for life that we all should learn how to accomplish.   Dreamer took each task to hand and accomplished it to the very best of his abilities - he gave 120%.
 
His success's speak for themselves - but his greatest perhaps was making each and every person that he met think they were the very MOST important person in the world at that moment!  His eyes and gaze he'd give you - told you immediately he understood!
 
Healthy his entire life (until 3 short weeks ago) - he competed in agility for 10.5 yrs with his first trial at 2 yrs 3 months and his last at 12 yrs 3 months, at that point he was not ready to retire so we started training in tracking and AKC rally - where he went through his RN to RE in 9 straight trials with placements - completing that last "RE"  Q - 6 wks shy of his 13th birthday at the MFGRC's Specialty.
 
His titles all speak for themselves and this note would be WAYYY too long for me to write to go through all his accomplishments.
 
I can't believe he's gone and though the decision I had to make yesterday was made out of love and complete respect for him it certainly doesn't make the pain any easier - when your best friend is no longer there you find yourself at a loss and just kinda wandering aimlessly.......
 
Dreamer:  aka  Rachel's Riviera Dream,
 
ADCH, ATCH-SP, MACH3, NATCH6, APD, U-CD, SHR , CDX, JH, RE, WC, S-TN-E, S-TG-E, WV-E, AXP, AJP,
ADHF (GRCA), NADAC Hall of Fame  
 

We miss you dearly.....
 
Becky, Flame and Camden
November 1, 2009

Dreamer at work - hanging out in my room. Wearing his bandanna, the medicine department made for him. October 20, 2009

Dreamer when out field training - Friday, October 30, 2009

Dreamer and Flame at Kathy's house - October 30, 2009

On Oct. 12th I did routine bloodwork on Dreamer just to check kidney/liver values as he had been on
Rimadyl for the last 4 months
(first time on NSAIDs for more than a week or so). 

When we got it back liver/kidney values were just fine, but it showed that he was mildly anemic.  So his Dr. wanted to go on a "search" to see if we could find why/where.
 
We did an abdominal u/s - which showed no masses all organs good (no changes from when I did him in July).  Then we did thoracic radiographs - there was an "undefined mass" in his left lung - however his lungs had dramatic changes (metastasis) throughout and in
July they were normal.
 
So he had cancer 'somewhere' - the issue was where.........
didn't know if the lungs were primary or secondary
at this point. 

The following Friday while I was brushing him I noticed a sore under his left arm pit (blue/grey coloured) that was bleeding.  The problem came in not being able to stop it due to its location and him rubbing it
every time he walked.
 
So on Tues at work one of our surgeons removed it under a local and just sedation and we sent it off.  In the interim he was put on Doxycycline and Piroxicam which studies have shown to have "cancer slowing" factors (depending on the cancers of course).  
 
When the pathology report came back it was
"Cutaneous Hemangiosarcoma".

We went out Friday to field train primarily to work Camden and of course he went (as did Flame) and he was markedly weaker - though still did two really short water retrieves. 

I stopped at a friends house on the way home (she was at an agility trial) and he got on the pool step - and I did baths on everyone,
but he was very 'dull' all day - his spark wasn't there.

When I got home he looked pale to me and he was really laboring in his breathing (which they warned me he would do - due to his lungs being full) when up and about.

 Basically we didn't get any sleep last night and I just could NOT bare to see him laboring like that - so I made the decision that on Sat. a.m. it was time for him to go, to be healthy, young and happy again!

On the way home from taking him to the crematorium, I had to stop at a store.  While going down an aisle I saw this hanging (in the wrong spot).....
or perhaps it was in the  "right spot"??!!


We Have A Secret

We have a secret, you and I
that no one else shall know,
for who but I can see you lie
each night in fire glow?
And who but I can reach my hand
before we go to bed
and feel the living warmth of you
and touch your silken head?
And only I walk woodland paths
and see ahead of me,
your small form racing with the wind
so young again, and free.
And only I can see you swim
in every brook I pass
and when I call, no one but I
can see the bending grass.
Author Unknown

(sent to me by a dear friend Maralyn - it is so very fitting!)